here is the problem:: we currently live in a one bedroom apartment. one that we cannot paint. one that is not even big enough for all of our stuff, let alone, big enough to add to with re-done furniture, and all the awesome diy artwork i've found browsing all of my favorite blogs.
the bigger problem? i've been struggling with discontentment. i know. it's ugly. i look at these sites, these lovely houses, paint colors, re-done furniture, diy projects and i want to have it, i want to have it all and it makes me unhappy with my own home.
this past week i kinda had a "come to Jesus" moment. i realized that the root of my discontentment was spending all this time on all of these fabulous sites. well, the thing is, i love this new hobby of mine. i love reading blogs, i love getting an inside look at how other moms and wives decorate and take pride in their homes. i love learning all the fantastic diy projects and how to decorate on the thrift. so i made a decision. i made a choice - because, let's be honest, i am choosing to allow this discontentment to grow as i look at these other sites. so from now on i'm choosing to turn that discontentment into motivation, and let me just tell you.... i have organized every nook and cranny of this one bedroom apartment in the last couple of weeks. laundry closet: check. bedroom closet: check. linen closet: check. our itty bitty but cute little deck: check. (the list goes on.) we have the most organized one bedroom apartment in all of lexington. i'm sure of it. i've also started an idea book. i just took a 3 ring binder, some page protecters, and started printing out the ideas that i just love, for when we do have a home that we can call our own. this way i'll be ahead of the game when the day comes.
here's the thing:: at the end of the day, jonathan and i have everything we need. we have a home. we have jobs. cars. food. clothes. our sweet, and weird little pup. and we have each other. i am reminding myself often that this is more than most of the world has, and i am choosing to be thankful. and one day....one glorious day, when we are blessed with our first house, i will go ape crazy decorating and diy-ing from wall to wall. and until then, i'm going to do what i can to be a good steward of the home we've been blessed with, choose thankfulness, and turn that ugly discontentment into motivation.
"....I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty." -the apostle paul